The Grand Canyon from thousands of miles up. (Darn those ice crystals on the window.)
A great couple of sights from our flight to Arizona.
Monday, June 16, 2008
Flying to AZ
A beautiful view of my favorite landmark, Mount Rainier. The Grand Canyon from thousands of miles up. (Darn those ice crystals on the window.)
A great couple of sights from our flight to Arizona.
The Grand Canyon from thousands of miles up. (Darn those ice crystals on the window.)A great couple of sights from our flight to Arizona.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Monsoon
I knew it wasn't going to be good news when my Dr's office called the next day regarding my biopsy. The nurse seriously started off by asking "Are you in a good position to talk? You're not driving or anything? Because I really need all of your attention."
Yeah, that's a great start. Thanks Nurse Nancy.
Well, they believe that I have cervical cancer. I have the highest level of abnormal cells (CM3) which usually means that there are cancerous cells somewhere on the cervix, if the CM3 cells aren't cancerous already. Since I have been getting tested for this so often, they are sure that they caught everything early, and that the cells recently changed to this high level. They are starting off by doing a LEEP/Electrocautery procedure to see where the cells are coming from, and how deep into the tissue they go. I have spoken to a friend who has undergone this surgery, and she says that it is not much different than the biopsies, and its close to painless. I am not too worried about the procedure, even though they are literally electrocuting my insides and then cauterizing the wounds (sounds like fun!) but they have asked me to get back on birth control, because getting pregnant right now, would complicate the situation.
So, after a year and a half of waiting, dreaming and praying for a baby, I am being told to wait longer. I am trying my best to think positive, and I know that "The Lord will provide" and "Things will happen when they are supposed to" should be my daily motto, but I just cant help but be angry, frustrated and tearful. Its so hard to be told one day that you "should be pregnant in the next month" and the next day informed that "you'll have to wait."
Not to mention, the word "cancer" is never what you want to hear. I have been reading a lot about it, and my friend Shannon and I were joking this morning that cervical cancer is "The Good Cancer" since its rare to die from it, and once its removed, there are usually no further complications. Not to mention, women who have had their cervix removed due to this disease, can still have children.
So right now, I am praying for a better attitude, comfort, faith, health and new shoes :) I think I deserve them. I am so thankful for the opportunity to be with family this weekend, even though the reasons for the reunion are sad, and Im sure it will be an emotional time, I am really excited to be with so many people that care about one another. I am also so thankful for my husband, his support and the pretty flowers he brought me last night.
I know that many of you are praying for our family right now, and we appreciate those as well.
Yeah, that's a great start. Thanks Nurse Nancy.
Well, they believe that I have cervical cancer. I have the highest level of abnormal cells (CM3) which usually means that there are cancerous cells somewhere on the cervix, if the CM3 cells aren't cancerous already. Since I have been getting tested for this so often, they are sure that they caught everything early, and that the cells recently changed to this high level. They are starting off by doing a LEEP/Electrocautery procedure to see where the cells are coming from, and how deep into the tissue they go. I have spoken to a friend who has undergone this surgery, and she says that it is not much different than the biopsies, and its close to painless. I am not too worried about the procedure, even though they are literally electrocuting my insides and then cauterizing the wounds (sounds like fun!) but they have asked me to get back on birth control, because getting pregnant right now, would complicate the situation.
So, after a year and a half of waiting, dreaming and praying for a baby, I am being told to wait longer. I am trying my best to think positive, and I know that "The Lord will provide" and "Things will happen when they are supposed to" should be my daily motto, but I just cant help but be angry, frustrated and tearful. Its so hard to be told one day that you "should be pregnant in the next month" and the next day informed that "you'll have to wait."
Not to mention, the word "cancer" is never what you want to hear. I have been reading a lot about it, and my friend Shannon and I were joking this morning that cervical cancer is "The Good Cancer" since its rare to die from it, and once its removed, there are usually no further complications. Not to mention, women who have had their cervix removed due to this disease, can still have children.
So right now, I am praying for a better attitude, comfort, faith, health and new shoes :) I think I deserve them. I am so thankful for the opportunity to be with family this weekend, even though the reasons for the reunion are sad, and Im sure it will be an emotional time, I am really excited to be with so many people that care about one another. I am also so thankful for my husband, his support and the pretty flowers he brought me last night.
I know that many of you are praying for our family right now, and we appreciate those as well.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
When it rains...
it pours.
And it has been wet here all weekend.
Sunday afternoon, by Dad called me to inform me that my Grandma had had two very serious strokes in a row, and it was not going to be long before she passed. She has been struggling with her health for a year now, but its always hard to get news like this.
I am SO emotional right now with all that we are going through. It really doesn't sound like much, but for some reason it has really done a number on me. I didn't realize I was so stressed out about things until this weekend, when it was too late, and I just had to snap. I found myself getting teary eyed at the dumbest things, and I almost cant help but laugh at myself. I know that women are supposed to feel this way every once and I while, but I am not one to have "feelings." Matt can agree to that one for sure. I pity him right now for having to put up with me! I am not even on hormones yet!!!
We will be heading down to Arizona on Thursday to see family and to take part in the funeral services. Grandma had asked me and my cousin Brittany to sing "Come, Come Ye Saints" which I am dreading due to the fact that that song already makes me cry when I am not singing it at a funeral. I will never make it through the song.
I wills say though, that I am looking forward to the Arizona sun. Something I need desperately after this weekend.
And it has been wet here all weekend.
Sunday afternoon, by Dad called me to inform me that my Grandma had had two very serious strokes in a row, and it was not going to be long before she passed. She has been struggling with her health for a year now, but its always hard to get news like this.
Monday morning I got up to get ready for my Drs appointment, something I have been dreading for at least 10 months, and I listened to a message on my phone that informed me that Grandma Bailey had passed away peacefully that morning.
I hope that Loni doesn't mind me using this photo, but I love it. She snapped this a few months back while visiting family.
This is a picture of my grandparents holding hands. They are amazing people, and have been through so much together. I love them both very much, and I will miss Grandma immensely.
This is a picture of my grandparents holding hands. They are amazing people, and have been through so much together. I love them both very much, and I will miss Grandma immensely.My biopsy went better than I expected, but still not fun. I actually ended up having 3. Luckily I got drugged, so I didn't have such a bad recovery as the last time. I took the day off work, which was nice because when I got home, I found our cat Princess to be almost lifeless. She has been sick for a few days, but the good news is, I was able to force feed her, and get some liquids down. She has improved a lot, thank heavens.
I am SO emotional right now with all that we are going through. It really doesn't sound like much, but for some reason it has really done a number on me. I didn't realize I was so stressed out about things until this weekend, when it was too late, and I just had to snap. I found myself getting teary eyed at the dumbest things, and I almost cant help but laugh at myself. I know that women are supposed to feel this way every once and I while, but I am not one to have "feelings." Matt can agree to that one for sure. I pity him right now for having to put up with me! I am not even on hormones yet!!!
We will be heading down to Arizona on Thursday to see family and to take part in the funeral services. Grandma had asked me and my cousin Brittany to sing "Come, Come Ye Saints" which I am dreading due to the fact that that song already makes me cry when I am not singing it at a funeral. I will never make it through the song.
I wills say though, that I am looking forward to the Arizona sun. Something I need desperately after this weekend.
Malcolms Baptism
After high school I moved to New York to Nanny for the Dillon family. Malcolm was 2 years old when I moved there, so you can imagine how weird it was for me to attend his 8th birthday last Saturday. I cant even believe how fast time flies! The Dillon's now live in Maple Valley so I get to go see my kids when ever I have a need.
Malcolm asked me to speak at his baptism. It made me feel pretty special that he would think of me, and I was happy to do it. The program was put together very nicely, and it was so great to see Malcolm become a member of the church. 
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)