Surprise!

I got a call yesterday from our social worker in Utah.

"I want to talk to you about what the Dr found during an ultrasound."

My heart sunk. I feel like a gazillion scary possibilities flashed through my mind in the 2 seconds that it took for her to continue.

"Based on everything the Dr found today, the baby is a boy."

A BOY! A heathy, growing baby boy. No health concerns, no problems, but a boy.

Wait, not a girl?
We finally settled on a name.
I have been pinning hair products and braiding how to's for days!
We have pink and purple dresses and a gorgeous golden nursery planned.

But it's a boy!?

"Your birthmother is concerned that this will change your mind."

I explained to our social worker that we were only shocked at the change in gender and not disappointed. Nothing could make us feel any different about this baby being ours.

Only now we will be swimming in a lot less pink.

We are thrilled! A little brother for Sammy. He knew all along. He wished and wished for a brother even after we told him the baby was a girl (or so we thought!) When I told him that the baby was indeed a little boy he said, "I know, Mom. I was right."

Perfect.

He even had a name picked out from the get go and it will be so fun to tell our sweet baby boy, your big brother picked your name.

Although we were ecstatic for a little girl, we are equally excited for our little boy to arrive. We have a lot of items to return, and I'll be pushing aside my designs for "HER" beautiful nursery, but I am excited to bring home a little man who was always meant to be a part of our family.

Can't wait to see this cute foot in October!

A light at the end of the tunnel.

It's no secret that we have struggled to adopt for the past two years. It's been a long and very emotional journey.

Thankfully, we are almost done.

Hopefully.

The heartbreaking part of adoption is that nothing is final until it is. And that's usually not until at least 24 hours after the baby is born. Most people keep their match a secret until placement but because of all the support and help we have had from friends and family, we felt that we needed to be open about our amazing news to share with those who have journeyed with us.

Although anything can happen, and we have experienced it all before, we are very positive that this little girl will be placed in our arms come October.

Over the past couple years we have been in touch with an adoption agency out of Utah that houses and cares for birthmothers throughout their pregnancy. The amazing thing about this direction is that you will not be scammed, the birthmothers are heathy and supported and placement chances are higher. The negative side is the cost.

After all we had been through taking the "inexpensive route", we were ready to take the plunge into the more "sure" and safe waters. We started our adoption fund to help out with the fees and moved forward with The Adoption Center of Choice.

A few weeks ago we were presented a birthmother profile that seemed promising. She had great health, sounded very strong and was looking for a family like ours. We asked for our information to be sent to her. Not even 2 hours later we got a call that she wanted to talk to our family. And ONLY our family.

It was hard not to get excited, but we stayed calm. After all, we have had our fair share of the word "no" and so we prepared ourselves for the same answer once again.

When we spoke to her our worries were drained from our hearts.

This was it.

She was easy to talk to, understanding, very positive and exactly the person we hoped we would be matched with.

Soon we heard the words we had been waiting so long for. "She has picked your family."

To say that we are excited would be an understatement. Although we still hold on to some concerns that have been caused by previous disappointments, we are feeling so sure and ready to bring this little girl home. We have started to prepare and can hardly wait to bring her back to all the wonderful people who have helped bring this amazing baby into our family.

We are so touched and extremely humbled by all the help that we have been offered.

If you would like to help support and care for our birthmother and assist in bringing home our "Little Sunshine", as Sam has been calling her, check out our fund at www.adopttogether.org/mattandholly

More updates to come!!

Exciting news

Thanks to everyone who has donated to our AdoptTogether fund thus far, we have been able to reach nearly half our goal in only one month, which makes it all the more exciting that we have been chosen by a birth mother to adopt a baby girl, due in early October.

We are so humbled and thankful to have such loving and supportive friends and family surrounding us during this adoption process. We are so happy and excited, October can’t come fast enough.

If you’d like to be a part of helping us bring this little girl home, please visit our website www.adopttogether.org/mattandholly